My wrist is hurting. Stinging.

It distracts me somewhat.

Too bad it can’t completely take away the pain.

Doing whatever I can do,
To numb the pain of losing you.

I don’t like it.

But it makes me feel in control, in a time where I have none, you have completely control over me though I’m not sure you realise it.

I promised myself after the first time last week, I wouldn’t do it again. I don’t like blood and I most definitely don’t like pain. So do I find myself longing to do it again?

I’m hopelessly in love with you. I’m almost certain you feel the same. So why have we ended up this way?

Yet, you’re hot and cold. Making me confused. Do I deserve this?

I want, no, need to see you.

I’ll be there. Waiting.

I’m hoping, the man I know you are, will show up.

But honestly?

I’m prepared to wait in the rain forever.

 

No Body Said It Was Easy, No One Ever Said It Would Be This Hard…

I feel like I’m just g0ing round in circles.

I don’t have a clue what to think.

All I know is I love you,

and if you leave,

I don’t know how I’ll manage.

I don’t know how I’ll cope a second time round.

Please don’t do this again.

Please don’t break my heart.